Had a dream about my best friend and two other friends that were very close and dear to my heart. It ended with Ignacio crying saying I chose him, after he left me at the other persons house. He literally just showed up hugged me and said let’s go we gotta go, so I did. And I stayed waiting for him in the yard out front, he left for some reason. and the other two ending the day with me because he showed up an something happened with some girl so everyone had to leave. There was more stuff in the middle but it completely took away at my heart strings. I woke up with my eyes all watery I can tell I was crying in my sleep. It was beautiful and agonizing and sad and fun and hilarious and tragic and it gave me so many emotions. It tears my heart apart knowing that I’m no longer close to those two friends anymore. Because at one point in time they meant the frikken world to me. They still would if things wouldn’t of ended up the way they did. As for Ignacio, well he’s always meant the world to me, he’s been my partner in crime for the last seven plus years and I hope with every cell in my being that it never changes. It’s funny how something like a dream can make your heart feel so heavy. I’m saddened by the thought that I no longer have a connection with them. But those two boys are doing great things and I know they will continue to do so I just wish things could of ended differently I would of loved to still have them by my side. And still be by theirs.
Keep at it. It’s your move.
Never miss an opportunity to tell someone how much they mean to you.
I hate the fact you always feel like you have to be going somewhere, like the end destination is to be finished, or to be happy. But the truth is a lot of us are completely lost, and we don’t know, and that is also a state of mind, to not know who you are and where you’re going.
Lykke Li | DIY Weekly (x)